First or Last

You know what really sucks ? 

Never being anyone's go to " person " .

Never being their number one 

Never a first priority , always a last resort 

I'm realizing more and more that i'm always second best to everyone

Anyone i've ever considered a best friends

always had someone else that they called their's

There was always someone that came before me

always someone that was their go to person for everything

I've always been the odd one out .

I've been the third wheel to every pair

and

I'm realizing more and more that it's probably always going to be that way .

I'm always going to be second best 

Let go

Let go the things,  let go the feelings.
Kalaulah perasaan semudah tu, dah lama ada delete button dalam life kita.

Sometimes i don't know whether i already move on or not. Sometimes perasaan tu datang dan pergi. Bila satu ketika you try to forget him and sampai satu tahap yang dah cecah 99% proses melupakan, pasti akan datang makhluk yg ingatkan kau dgn masa silam. Whattheeeheckkkk

At that time, whether kau nak move or demgar kata kata makhluk yg aku rasa macam nak tendang dia jauh jauh.

Tapi itu lah life, perasaan ialah satu benda yang unexpected. Dari benci kepada suka. Dari suka kepada benci. Aku ditahap yang mana?  Biarlah rahsia. Kalau cerita tambah dosa free free je.

Betul jugak orang cakap, dalam hidup ni kita tak boleh berharap dekat orang lain sebab kita sendiri pun dah kecewa dengan life kita yang serupa tah apa apa.

Hmm, bila fikir balik buat apa berharap in fact dia tak ada perasaan dekat kita. It just like wasting my time and life

Cukuplah buat kali ni.